Just another thing quickly....Do people think I try to be how I am? No, I'm sorry if I hurt you. I'm sorry for what I did, and I'm sorry for being such a bad friend. I don't purposely go out trying to hurt people and ruin moods. It happens. I don't realise it. However, if it does happen, why don't you ever come and say something about it? I don't know why you assume I've tried to piss you off and hurt you constantly, but I can't help it. I'm honestly sorry, but you have no idea what goes through my head lately, and it's nothing good. Nothing good at all. I've tried being a better person, and if it hasn't worked, then too bad. I can't help it, and I'm sorry it's affected you, but you never tried to come and change things. Why is it that you're so annoyed at me anyway? I don't understand really, because one moment we're best friends, the next you hate me. I've just liked someone who you probably think I 'didn't care about at all', but I did. They are probably the first person I actually DID care about properly, and now they hate me, but are too nice to admit it. It's things like this that make me relish the idea of leaving the country. All the memories I thought were incredible have turned to utter crap.
So I guess everytime we talked about something, it was just a lie when you said you appreciated our friendship....but wait, you never actually did say that.
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